Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Short But Not Sweet

Today I was sitting on the couch watching HGTV, happy as a clam, when I realized just how long it had been since I'd seen my husband's face, held his hand, kissed him. And suddenly I missed him so intensely that I could barely breathe. For some reason, it seems like the closer R&R gets, the harder it is for me to get through the day without constantly having to hold back tears. Maybe it's the holiday season and my reaction to seeing so many happy, kissing couples. Maybe it's the fact that I'm out of school now so I have extra time to be sad. Or maybe it's the fact that he has been gone for months and months now and it's starting to wear on my emotions. Whatever the reason, I don't like it one bit and I really hope it passes as quickly as it came.

If I don't get my husband back soon, I might just lose my mind.


  1. I got increasingly nuttier as it got time for R&R and then when he was coming home. I'd avoid going on post because I seeing ACUs socked me in the stomach, I hated going on Facebook and seeing friends' homecing pictures, and I got incredibly irritable and tearful and stir-crazy so I know the feeling. I know it sucks :(! But then all the bad emotions get flipped to crazy-good ones the second he gets here so hold onto that idea! And stay as busy as humanly possible! Haha I'll be thinking about you

  2. Woooww just read that and I can tell I've been up all night packing and cleaning. It looks like I typed it drunk.

  3. haha, I think we all get like that at some point during these deployments.

    P.S. new follower here, talk to ya soon.

  4. I'm sorry, it does really suck! I saw a balding man in the grocery store the other day and had to fight back tears because it reminded me of my husband's shaved head.

    I'm sure I gave that poor man some kind of complex; he just knows that some random woman cried when she looked at him. (I do feel bad about that.)